Really personal
After another fight with my mother over the phone, I feel a bit exhausted, but strangely detached. I am 28 years old, I don’t live with her, and yet we can still fight like a mother and a teenage daughter. It gets old after a while, but it’s not easy to change your behavior. So, I always end up blaming myself for so many things and, well, I tend to suffer from constant guilt when it comes to her.
But now I’m… It’s different. I don’t feel much. I don’t feel guilty, all I feel is that I’m tired of feeling guilty. I just can’t do that anymore.
Well, at least that’s how I feel at the moment.
I keep noticing gray hairs and I guess (apart from genetic) it’s because I tend to worry all the time. I’d love to stop, and to relax, for a change.
Music: “Hard Sun” (Eddie Vedder covers Indio), “Into the Wild” soundtrack (mmmm). I love this film.
10 Aug 09 at 11:12 PM | Diary (Personal), Music | 6 comments
Mariana
Guilty is something that really tires us. You can feel lucky if you’re not feeling guilty.
22 Aug 09 at 6:12 PM
Sigg3
Why do people feel guilty? Did you hit your mother in the head? No!
You should let her know how you feel, my sister did, and since then my mother has thought twice about sending her burdens further “down” the chain to the next generation(s)..
24 Aug 09 at 9:15 PM
Sigg3
Remember, people older than you can be wrong too!
24 Aug 09 at 9:15 PM
Mariana
“Why do people feel guilty? Did you hit your mother in the head? No!”
The worst part right there… we always feel guilty about what we shouldn’t… =/
p.s. I loved this song. His voice is great isn’t it?
03 Sep 09 at 4:02 AM
Mira
Yes, guilt is a bitch. One of the most important lessons I must learn is how NOT to feel guilty all the time.
Nana: Yes, the song is fantastic. And I adore Ed’s voice, even though it’s not as good as it used to be.
Still, I could listen that man read (sing) a phonebook.
03 Sep 09 at 8:07 PM
Marianne
Nice site :3
04 Sep 09 at 7:45 PM