… and I won!
I mean, I managed to write more than 50 000 words in 30 days, which is an accomplishment. Some of those words I actually like. However, my novel is not finished. I’m around 86 000 words and I’m about to write the most important chapters: the ending.
I’m one of those people who enjoy their beginnings, their endings (even more), but hate their middles. It’s a bit different with “Hardin Hades” (my NaNo 2010 novel). I got through the middle without a problem. The ending is giving me headaches.
It’s not that I don’t know how to end it. It was planned, outlined, imagined, long ago. I am just not sure how to find the right way to make the point I’m trying to make. I am not one of those people that force message to their readers, but I do want to hit the right emotion and to make the novel well rounded. If not, it could end up being incredibly sexist and racist. *
* Why, you may ask? Because the protagonist is a girl with serious issues, some concerning sex, and most of the stuff is told from her POV. I need to make sure people get it’s not how author sees the world, but her fucked up character. Racist? There’s a non-white character that is viewed by everybody as a poor, dirty girl with foul mouth… Only, she isn’t. She’s somebody who plays to other people’s racism so she could hide. This also needs to be made clear.
Even without this issues, my biggest concern is to make the novel well-rounded. The ending is one of the most important thing about a novel (or a film for that matter) and it must work perfectly.
So all in all, I won NaNoWriMo, but I am a couple of important chapters away from winning.
But I must say NaNoWriMo was exactly what I needed at this moment in my life. It was a perfect opportunity to get myself back on track, emotionally speaking, after graduating and not having any ideas about where/how to search for a decent job. It also made me write, and I missed it so much. I feel like a part of me has been sleeping for the past 13 years… But now is awaken.