My dear hamster Dale died on April 6th. He was 2 years, 10 months old, which is considered an old age for a hamster. I know he was old but still I miss him.

He was such a tame, cute animal, a long haired Syrian. R.I.P. my dear Dale.

Dale (May 29th 2006- April 6th 2009)

The whole day today went half-wrong for me. The morning was ok, but after that I got my traditional spring allergy and had to sleep whole afternoon. After that, I had a bad conversation with my mother, who started panicking about the money- not that I don’t understand her. But it was really disturbing to me, the subject of money I mean, that I started panicking as well. So now I feel like 100% shit, anxious, guilty, and also panicking a bit. Because, well, she’s right, I don’t have money; I just try my best no to start panicking about that, I don’t need it at the moment. Staying optimistic is not always an easy task. I guess it’s just really easy to make me anxious, especially when it comes to existential issues. On the other hand, I love spring, and I’m glad it’s here, even with the allergy.