What’s considered to be a “weird website search” is highly subjective, but ways people find this site are sometimes pretty strange.

Not to mention there’s nothing- I repeat: nothing here that would be useful to people searching for, say, “Gary Oldman gay pictures”. Yes, that was an actual search. And no, I have no idea how “they” got here, since, well… You get the idea.

Some of the more interesting recent searches:

• “edward and bella” “lack of chemistry”
• frusciante “social situations”
• Gary Oldman gay pictures (Is there something I should know about?)
• twilight forest scene
• my life is awkward mira mira
• buva can i see you?
• jacob rape hard core twilight (Didn’t you mean: “Edward rape”?)
• black guys do it right
• jeff ament sexy
• freckles dark hair (Really? Me too)

Are you named after anyone?
No. My mother wanted to give me a not-so-frequent name, because she didn’t want me to be one of 7 girls with the same name in the class. Also, she wanted something that can have a nice nickname. Unfortunately, she didn’t pay attention on length, so my name + my maiden name = very long and many people (teachers, etc) used a more frequent name beginning with “M”.

Do you like your handwriting?
My handwriting is ugly and messy, and doesn’t look like female handwriting. On the other hand, I like it. It looks like my father’s.

If you were someone else, would you be friends with you?
Not sure. I am an ok person, but I can’t get along with people easily. I am way too shy, a bit antisocial and I lack tact.

Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Yes. Sometimes way to much.

What is the first thing you notice about people?
The shallow, or not so shallow answer?

The shallow answer is: hair. It’s the first thing I notice on people, specially male people. It’s stronger than me and I can’t help it.

Not so shallow answer: Something- not sure how to define it- something that tells me if I could get along with this person or not. I am not a good judge of character, but I can sense jerks, and people who think they’re waaay better than the others. On the other hand, they sense me, too. I am hardly a person who can make a good impression and get a long with people easily. I don’t do that on purpose.

Least favorite thing about yourself?
The thing that makes me panic about everything.

Favorite smells?
Ocean.

Favorite sounds?
Birds in the morning, waves, deep male voices, crickets in summer nights, bass guitar.

Hair color?
Dark brown. Used to be black when I was a kid.

When was the last time you got a haircut?
A few years ago. I don’t cut my hair.

Eye color?
Brown, with little yellow spots. Not sure if they could be considered hazel.

Do you wear contacts?
No. I used to, but I can’t afford them at the moment. I wear glasses. I am very nearsighted.

What book are you reading now?
Toni Morrison’s “Jazz”. Again. One of my favourite books.

At first, I wanted to write about writing. My need for it, that is. But that is such an important subject for me and demands a better mood (read below).

At second, I wanted to write about this year’s second snow and catching a cold because of my shoes (I like those shoes but they are not for snow… And I don’t have any that are good for snow).

At third, I wanted to write about John Frusciante leaving Red Hot Chili Peppers.

But eventually, I settled with random rant about… I am not quite sure what.

See, this made me angry: Top 10 Bad Things That Are Good For You.

The title is catchy, and the whole list is pretty interesting. But hey, (spoiler alert) what is sex doing on a list like that??? Yes, there is: sex is one of the “bad things that are good for you”. WTF?!?

So, sex is a bad thing? At least as bad as LSD, alcohol and anger. Ok, I am one of those people who see NOTHING bad about chocolate. My mother would say the same thing about coffee. I know some people who think the same about beer, vine or marijuana. But sex?!?!?

It’s ridiculous. Sex should not be on that list. Not because it’s not “good for you” (because, obviously, it is), but because it’s not “bad” in the first place.

So, why am I writing this? I guess I am bored and I do want to update my website. But perhaps I just liked that list (it’s really interesting), until I reached the sex part.

Oh, but maybe it’s a joke, who knows? In any case, I do have another blog post (and this time, it’s full of words such as “sex”, “marijuana” and “LSD”.

… It will get weird quickly.

Remember my race related entry? Along with “New Moon” review, that’s the one that got all the attention. Unwanted attention, sure, but I am not complaining.

Or maybe I do? “I am racist” entry got many visitors; some of them were first (and only) time visitors. And many of them came from… strange places, to say the least. I don’t think any white supremacist could have fun here (there’s nothing- I repeat: nothing) that can lead them here (or at least I hope so), but the entry was obviously intriguing and misleading.

To make two things clear

One: When I said I was racist, I didn’t mean I was racist towards black people. On the contrary. Read the whole entry before making a judgment.

Second: Even though my test results show I have prejudice towards white people, that doesn’t mean I hate white people. After all, I am white. My friends and family are white. Heck, all the people I know are white.

Which is precisely why the test result don’t show my racism- rather my social anxiety. I am very (and I mean: very) shy, and I lack profound social skills. To be honest, I don’t fully understand people, nor they understand me. I don’t hate humans, I really don’t- but there’s obviously something in me that have at least a bit of fear when it comes to social contacts. On the other hand, I am friendly and I like meeting new people; but my lack of social skills sometimes make those interactions awkward.

And since white people are the only people I know, the test show my social anxiety rather than racism.

So, you don’t want to comment? Fine.

Back to my blog post. That entry was really popular, but people refused to comment (same goes for “New Moon” entry, but more about it some other time). There’s only one (ok, two) reasons for this:

1. People don’t give a fuck about commenting. (Could be true).
2. People feel embarrassed about their test results.

While I believe majority of my visitors don’t care about commenting on a random blog, I fear some of them could feel awkward after taking the test. Say you got the most popular result (you prefer white people to black). So what? It’s not like you failed to make a point or something. That result is the most popular because there are reasons for it to be. It’s the world around us that make that result so popular. Think about it.

The result could- and should- make you think, but it doesn’t make you a monster. Now, being proud of your racist result is another thing. But that’s yet another story.

Ok, so, what’s more important for a website: layout or content?

You can read (and discuss) my article here: Layout vs content.